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[ She's so used to covering and hiding her neck with scarves and turtleneck sweaters that she's almost forgotten the last time she'd worn a necklace. But as she puts it on, she knows what a beautiful and thoughtful gift this is. ]

it's beautiful. i wish i could have seen you to thank you in person.

I was afraid you would see me and tell me you never wished to see me.

how could you even think that? i can't get you out of my head.

For the way I was?

both sides of you.

You deserve better.

you don't know anywhere near enough about me to say that. i'm not a good person. i guess one of the reasons i like you is that you try to be better.

I know enough about people, and even on your worst days you have not done the things I have.

it's in your nature to do awful things to human beings. when we do it to each other ... that's something else entirely

You can still overcome nature. Cruelty is still cruelty no matter who perpetrates it.

you're not cruel, though. not to me.

I try actively not to be. Especially to you. Which is why I was afraid to see you in person.

That was not how I wanted that to go.

i know. and i'm sorry for that.
but that's not you, it's this place. it's not really designed for candle lit dinners and slow courtships.

That is true. Perhaps if I had not pushed so hard against this place it would not have ended in such a way.

You were right. I am just old and stubborn and was hoping for a better way.

i mean, from where i'm standing it was amazing. i'm sorry it wasn't what you wanted.

Oh, it was exactly what I wanted. That is the part I struggle with.

then we both enjoyed ourselves and no one got hurt. so there's really nothing to be ashamed about.

Perhaps you have a point, Abigail.

darn right i do.
and if you're not sure about how i feel, please ask me, rather than trying to avoid me.

It wasn't because of that. It was because I was ashamed.

of what you are? what you could have done to me?

Yes. It's not a part of myself I am proud of.

It could have gone much worse. That's what I fear. That this place will strip my inhibitions, and I will not be able to stop myself from hurting you or anyone else.

[And he already knows he's likely to have already left her with bruises from their time together. He was not gentle.]

Perhaps...
We cannot redo what is done, but if you're amenable, perhaps we spend some time together tonight.

[He wants to try and make it up to her. If he could.]

i think you're stronger than you give yourself credit.

i'd like that a lot, i'm free tonight

Then tonight. At our bench?

that sounds perfect.

[ She's glad he doesn't think the location is sullied now. ]

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