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OOC INFORMATION
Player Name: Hannah
Are you over 18?: Yes
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Other Characters in Game: None
IC INFORMATION
Character Name: Abigail Hobbs
Canon: Hannibal
Canon Point: Midway through season 1 episode 9, Trou Normand
Background: Wiki link
Suitability:
Abigail is very malleable, trying to adapt herself to her surroundings or to the people around her that she looks up to. This means that the setting of the game could in itself influence the way she develops as a character, which I'm very interested in playing. She's also quite morally grey and could help push plots in either a good or bad direction depending on which would benefit her. I could see her developing as a spy/agent type, or becoming quite adept in learning a certain type of magic. I also enjoy playing elements of corruption and exploring just how far she's willing to go to survive, and this seems like a good setting to explore that.
Powers: None
PERSONALITY QUESTIONS
Describe an important event in your character's life and how it impacted them.
One event that particularly stands out in shaping Abigail's life is her killing of Nick Boyle. This was the turning point for her in terms of actually being the one to kill someone herself rather than simply aiding her father, i.e. having to look at herself as a killer rather than being coerced into being an accomplice, by which she'd been able to view herself as another victim of his crimes. This newfound sense of herself as a sole culprit, as a murderer, is then amplified by Hannibal suggesting to her that she "butchered" Boyle, rather than killing him in self-defense, which would be the more conventional way of viewing it (and doubtless how Will or Alana would have tried to explain it to her, had they been there instead of Hannibal). Essentially, Hannibal is molding her narrative of how she sees herself away from that of a victim and towards that of a killer, presenting it as a black and white matter. This in turn enhances her guilt about her involvement in her father's crimes, leading her to acknowledge her accomplice role as the 'lure', warping the ability to see herself as a victim, even though she tries to hold on to that image for her own protection.
Does your character have a moral code, or other set of standards they try to live by?
Abigail doesn't have a fixed moral code, although she'd like to get to know herself more, so she can figure out if she fits with one. Mostly, her personal code and standards are simply built around her own survival, and if she has to be morally flexible to achieve that, so be it. The way in which she molds herself to the people she's around is definitely in part a survival instinct, wanting approval and protection, but it also makes her susceptible to manipulation, some of which she acknowledges as a negative effect of trying to survive, but a lot of which she's entirely unaware of. Her continuing to try to define herself as either a victim or survivor of her father is a way of protecting herself too, presenting herself alternately as vulnerable as a victim or empowered as a survivor, depending on which will fit better in the situation, as well as which she identifies with internally at the time (arguably her mind's way of protecting her from the inner turmoil that comes with having to acknowledge herself as a killer and/or accomplice). She is also capable of taking great risks in the short term to try and survive in the long term, for instance her digging up Boyle's body for the FBI to find was not just the result of her gnawing guilt, but also her need to have some small measure of control over the situation to help her own survival. Ultimately, Abigail's reaction to cling onto whatever will help her survive allows Hannibal to take her captive and brainwash her, even going so far as to push Alana out of a window at his order, hoping that she'll be able to survive by doing what he says, no matter how bad.
What quality or qualities do they admire most?
Abigail values self-assurance and intelligence, both of which she's drawn to in Hannibal. She also recognises him as a manipulator, and while she's easily manipulated by him she also admires the quality, as someone who manipulates others herself. To have the self-assurance to completely own every part of who she is, rather than having so much fear and vacillating between victim, survivor and killer in order to simply protect herself, is something she aspires toward. Additionally as she is bright but unable to attend college due to her circumstances, she admires those who have been able to put their intelligence to use in their career or found ways to express it creatively.
Do they have a part of themselves they dislike?
Abigail dislikes her inability to define herself. She flits between labelling herself as a survivor, victim, murderer, and accomplice, trying to place herself into one category when in reality she fits all of them. She's only just beginning to understand that morally she's more a shade of grey than black and white, something that's difficult with the more black and white legal system and societal judgement both influencing how she sees herself. Her low confidence is partly due to the guilt she feels, but also knowing that she doesn't fit into a neat box in terms of the crimes she's been involved with, and she dislikes how she can bounce between seeing herself as an innocent victim one moment and a potential sociopath the next, finding it difficult to acknowledge that she contains multitudes.
What is their sign, and why?
I've gone with The Hanged Man, partly because in many ways Abigail is an outsider from mainstream society; this is most evident with her having committed the taboo of cannibalism, which she would always carry with her even if she were to try to fit back into society, and it would be impossible for people to look at her the same way. She's aware of the 'hard truths' about herself and what she's done, even if trying to accept those is difficult for her at the moment. Additionally, her code is based around her own survival which seems to fit the Hanged Man more than the other signs.
SAMPLES & ARRIVAL
Samples:
Test drive and a thread from another game
Arrival Scenario: Imprisoned
Player Name: Hannah
Are you over 18?: Yes
Contact:
Other Characters in Game: None
IC INFORMATION
Character Name: Abigail Hobbs
Canon: Hannibal
Canon Point: Midway through season 1 episode 9, Trou Normand
Background: Wiki link
Suitability:
Abigail is very malleable, trying to adapt herself to her surroundings or to the people around her that she looks up to. This means that the setting of the game could in itself influence the way she develops as a character, which I'm very interested in playing. She's also quite morally grey and could help push plots in either a good or bad direction depending on which would benefit her. I could see her developing as a spy/agent type, or becoming quite adept in learning a certain type of magic. I also enjoy playing elements of corruption and exploring just how far she's willing to go to survive, and this seems like a good setting to explore that.
Powers: None
PERSONALITY QUESTIONS
Describe an important event in your character's life and how it impacted them.
One event that particularly stands out in shaping Abigail's life is her killing of Nick Boyle. This was the turning point for her in terms of actually being the one to kill someone herself rather than simply aiding her father, i.e. having to look at herself as a killer rather than being coerced into being an accomplice, by which she'd been able to view herself as another victim of his crimes. This newfound sense of herself as a sole culprit, as a murderer, is then amplified by Hannibal suggesting to her that she "butchered" Boyle, rather than killing him in self-defense, which would be the more conventional way of viewing it (and doubtless how Will or Alana would have tried to explain it to her, had they been there instead of Hannibal). Essentially, Hannibal is molding her narrative of how she sees herself away from that of a victim and towards that of a killer, presenting it as a black and white matter. This in turn enhances her guilt about her involvement in her father's crimes, leading her to acknowledge her accomplice role as the 'lure', warping the ability to see herself as a victim, even though she tries to hold on to that image for her own protection.
Does your character have a moral code, or other set of standards they try to live by?
Abigail doesn't have a fixed moral code, although she'd like to get to know herself more, so she can figure out if she fits with one. Mostly, her personal code and standards are simply built around her own survival, and if she has to be morally flexible to achieve that, so be it. The way in which she molds herself to the people she's around is definitely in part a survival instinct, wanting approval and protection, but it also makes her susceptible to manipulation, some of which she acknowledges as a negative effect of trying to survive, but a lot of which she's entirely unaware of. Her continuing to try to define herself as either a victim or survivor of her father is a way of protecting herself too, presenting herself alternately as vulnerable as a victim or empowered as a survivor, depending on which will fit better in the situation, as well as which she identifies with internally at the time (arguably her mind's way of protecting her from the inner turmoil that comes with having to acknowledge herself as a killer and/or accomplice). She is also capable of taking great risks in the short term to try and survive in the long term, for instance her digging up Boyle's body for the FBI to find was not just the result of her gnawing guilt, but also her need to have some small measure of control over the situation to help her own survival. Ultimately, Abigail's reaction to cling onto whatever will help her survive allows Hannibal to take her captive and brainwash her, even going so far as to push Alana out of a window at his order, hoping that she'll be able to survive by doing what he says, no matter how bad.
What quality or qualities do they admire most?
Abigail values self-assurance and intelligence, both of which she's drawn to in Hannibal. She also recognises him as a manipulator, and while she's easily manipulated by him she also admires the quality, as someone who manipulates others herself. To have the self-assurance to completely own every part of who she is, rather than having so much fear and vacillating between victim, survivor and killer in order to simply protect herself, is something she aspires toward. Additionally as she is bright but unable to attend college due to her circumstances, she admires those who have been able to put their intelligence to use in their career or found ways to express it creatively.
Do they have a part of themselves they dislike?
Abigail dislikes her inability to define herself. She flits between labelling herself as a survivor, victim, murderer, and accomplice, trying to place herself into one category when in reality she fits all of them. She's only just beginning to understand that morally she's more a shade of grey than black and white, something that's difficult with the more black and white legal system and societal judgement both influencing how she sees herself. Her low confidence is partly due to the guilt she feels, but also knowing that she doesn't fit into a neat box in terms of the crimes she's been involved with, and she dislikes how she can bounce between seeing herself as an innocent victim one moment and a potential sociopath the next, finding it difficult to acknowledge that she contains multitudes.
What is their sign, and why?
I've gone with The Hanged Man, partly because in many ways Abigail is an outsider from mainstream society; this is most evident with her having committed the taboo of cannibalism, which she would always carry with her even if she were to try to fit back into society, and it would be impossible for people to look at her the same way. She's aware of the 'hard truths' about herself and what she's done, even if trying to accept those is difficult for her at the moment. Additionally, her code is based around her own survival which seems to fit the Hanged Man more than the other signs.
SAMPLES & ARRIVAL
Samples:
Test drive and a thread from another game
Arrival Scenario: Imprisoned